3 captains stranded
How do people listen to their intuition? It feels like there are always multiple voices trying to lead the way — like many captains on one ship, all paddling in different directions. I am stuck. While some people say, “It’s okay to take a break” or “Staying still is also a choice,” I don’t like it. Not doing anything seems like the biggest cop-out. So how do other people listen to their inner voice?
I am a very fearful person, always thinking about the worst-case scenario. I don’t want to be stuck like this anymore. I want to courageously and confidently carve my way, pushing through obstacles… but which way?
I want to read, write, and create stories all day — live in a fantasy world away from the real world. But is it because I just want to escape?
That sounds cowardly.
So then, what do I want to do uninfluenced by my fear?
What am I even afraid of?
Being dependent and helpless, not being able to do what I want.
But what do I want?
Comfort and security;
To not be alone. I am afraid of being alone.
Okay, so if I weren’t afraid, what would I want?
Think, think, THINK!
To be perfect. Untouchable.
Why?
Because I don’t want anybody to leave me.
Afraid.
No. So what do I truly want? Who am I when I’m not afraid?
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Stuck and stranded in the middle of the ocean.
